waiting for... ...

i have been waiting for u (file 1) long time for asking me my msn and phone number....that day when i was as a bar tender during f&b class, finally u approached me came and asking me...i was so happy and i thought u will always find me from that day...but u are disappointing me... ...i am still waiting for you in every day and every night...but the result is...the person who found me is (file2),i can feel that file 2 maybe is crush on me now, he is a good guy, i know the person who suitable for me is him,always helps me in doing assignments,teaching me format pendrive,teaching me doing microsoft word...but i had no feel at all,just always thinking of you...why didnt you do any action at all....

recently, file 2 always keep chatting with me..i also replied but even when i replying him, i also hope that im replying file 1, this is not fair to file 2, at first, i was wondering file 2 is should be crush on jiayi at first,why became me?or i have misunderstanded him, i hope so very much...
everytimes when i signed in my msn, i saw u also be there,then im so happy u were there then i will look farward to chat with you, but you were no any action at all...once more dissapointing me...everytimes at college when we meet each other,i will so looking farword to you will approach me,but why the person who always approach me is your friends...you don like i chat with them?or you are no mood?or you are dare to do it?do you know how many questions im my mind when i saw your personal msg "trying to make some improvement"...what it means???

actually i like thursday and friday....that day is my f&b class, during lunch time,you guys must be around Lagenda cafe..then only i have a chance to chat with you,smiled at you...i hope it is same to you...another day is friday,we suposely should have a chance to have a lunch together,even go back home together...but you and me also didnt take any action at all...i really don want just always say "hi", "hello", "goodbye" with you, you will be graduate this semester,still left 6 weeks only...i don wanna be regreat after this,you said you don have a girl friend,is that really???if don have,why don you still take any action on me??dont you ever think that,if you start the first step,maybe the result will be different in your mind... ...

im starting avoided file 2...dont know can he feel it?i don know whether is this my action correct or not, but i know if i keep replying him, it will make him misunderstanding on me...i tink it is so cruel to him and i don know whether can i be persistant to do this?actually i have known that i can't...i just hope he will be fine...

every things was started because of PROM NITE, if i didnt be there last year,maybe all the situation will different...am i will be know they all??or maybe i will not being suffer right now...but i would like to tell the all seniors "nice to meet you guys"...thx for being 1 parts of in my mind and giving memories that at college life... ...